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[Aug. 1st, 2006|09:32 pm] |
im no longer the old amber/chode/RED/junior/{whatever else you may call me}
i have really changed...
i can feel it
when i walk around, i have TONS of confidence, and i know that people can see that in me. it is an AMAZING feeling. i feel like i can be myself so much more easily than before. cause before only a few people that were very close to me, got to see my comfortable, crazy, fun side...
but now i can show the world...
i am able to see that i am beautiful. i am hot. and i realized that because i can see that in myself and i truly believe it. then others can see it and believe it as well. and that is a great feeling.
i absolutly LOVE the new me, and i think once school starts and you all see the changes ive made, i think you guys will love it too.
I miss you all soooo much, and i just wanted to share this with you guys. because i dont know about you all. but i am VERY proud of myself. i know ive come along way from that nerdy annoying little freshman with a mouth full of braces, and almost no friends.
I AM NEW IMPROVED AND READY TO COME HOME IN 5 DAYS AND SHOW SA TOWN WHO I AM! |
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| hmm funny how things work out |
[Jul. 23rd, 2006|11:23 pm] |
i was thinking the last couple of days about how much i miss unna. cause i miss her ALOT!!
and then i thought... wow i remember 3 years ago when unna(like everyone else) hated me. but of course i dont blame her. but i mean she didnt talk to me for most of our sophmore year.
yet now she is my bestest friend, my wife. i dont even know how or when it actually happend. idk how we became so close, but i am soo glad that we did. i couldnt ask for a better wife or best friend.<3
just thought i would ponder that for a moment. it just goes to show how much things can change.
i know i have changed alot, and i thank unna for alot of that.
unna has become part of me... its been over a month since ive seen, and i miss her SOO much. and sadly i still have 2 weeks left to go. but thats the beauty of a cell phone... now that im back from germany, i can call her and text her, and it doesnt seem so bad
i always hoped i would find a friend like unna, and i did. |
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| stolen from unna |
[May. 25th, 2006|11:32 pm] |
| [ | who am i now?? |
| |  tired | ] |
| [ | my escape |
| | Senses Fail- Slow Dance | ] |
ok well i was really bored and i found this on my wifey unna's page, so i decided to fill it out
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| hmm |
[May. 25th, 2006|10:52 pm] |
| [ | who am i now?? |
| | tired | ] |
| [ | my escape |
| | Dashboard Confessional-Screaming Infidelities | ] |
well my parents are being all grrr about the awards night/lockin... oh well hopefully i can go if not im gona be REALLY sad...
so anyways... i realized i have an extreme adiction to ICONS!!! they are soo effin cool. if you know good sites for icons tell me please!!!
oh and i did figure out if im a lesbian or not... i am... if you dont like it get over it... cause im not gonna change for ANYONE!
gosh i've been thinking about 'her'. i dont think she likes me like that. she rarely ever talks to me. i dont know. i wanna get to know her, but what if she doesnt want to talk to me? i have a crush, i dont think she knows it, but she might know... i kinda hope she knows. but i also kinda hope she doesnt, cause if she did then why wouldnt she talk to me.
im going to bed... goodnight all...
<33
Amber |
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| wow... thinking is hard |
[May. 24th, 2006|05:24 pm] |
| [ | quit stalking me |
| | lost in thought | ] |
| [ | who am i now?? |
| |  thoughtful | ] |
| [ | my escape |
| | Alkaline Trio-Time To Waste | ] |
ok wow i am always thinking thanks to my lovely ADHD... but today i did ALOT of thinking... about alot of things... about my life(all aspects)... and about other things...like my sexuality
anyways...
i also realized i am gonna graduate in a year...i mean i knew that but it really hit home cause a lot of my friends are graduating... then im on my own... dont get my wrong i cant wait to get out from the control of my mother... but im kinda scared too...
that why i thought so much today... i am getting older and more mature, and i dotn really know what to do sometimes... high school has gone by so fast... i dotn know where all that time went... but anyways... i need to keep thinking cause my thoughts arent whole.. they just come in pieces... but hey i've had 16 years of practice in figuring them out... so if i figure something outlike if im bi or lesbian i will let you know
<3333
Amber |
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| hmmm |
[May. 23rd, 2006|11:13 am] |
| [ | quit stalking me |
| | my room | ] |
| [ | who am i now?? |
| | ehh... could be alot better | ] |
| [ | my escape |
| | Curse of Curves- Cute Is What We Aim For | ] |
wow i just realized that i have yet to write here...
soo umm i writing now...
lets see today was SHIT!!
and yet yesterday was fuckin AWSOME!!
why must this life be so cruel...
i dont understand...
oh well... im at home now cause i dont really feel too good...
and now i am gonna lay down, and then get up in a little bit and do my homework...
how fun |
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